Tea ~ Apricot Oolong
Let me preface my first post since college (where I think I wrote mostly to procrastinate from doing schoolwork rather than sharing what was on my heart, but you can read it here. Enjoy. Also, if any of you had a Xanga back then, you may be linked on the bottom lefthand side.) by saying that starting a blog has been on my mind for a number of months. Perhaps even years. But like many things that I am encouraged by friends and family to do because they tell me I am or could be good at it, I often find myself not believing them. Not because what they are saying isn’t true, but because it seems easier to believe that I am inadequate and that what I do isn’t worth beans. “Why would I start a blog? No one wants to read what I have to say.” This is just the tip of the iceberg. Friends have mentioned a time or two that I have a “manifesto” style of writing. However, I will do my best to condense it as much as possible into shorter, more frequent posts as to not overwhelm you with the seemly hundreds of thoughts that swirl in my mind on a daily basis, many of them stemming from my feelings of inadequacy and worth. Let me tell you as I tell myself:
THESE ARE LIES!
We have one true and glorious SAVIOR that tells us we are made perfect, a new creation, by the ONE. PERFECT. SPOTLESS LAMB. (2 Corinthians 5:17; 1 Peter 1:19)
“For by that one offering he forever made perfect those who are being made holy. And the Holy Spirit also testifies that this is so. For he says, “This is the NEW covenant I will make with my people on that day, says the Lord: I will put my laws in their hearts, and I will write them on their minds.” Then he says, “I will never again remember their sins and lawless deeds.” And when sins have been forgiven, there is no need to offer any more sacrifices.” Hebrews 10:14-18
You are made perfect. You are made worthy. You are made sufficient because HE is sufficient. We have freedom in the one, true God on account of Christ.
What lies are you believing today? What are you letting define your worth and identity?
This blog is not about me. It’s not about my good works, but about the good work He is doing in me. I am writing because He has called me to share my joys and trials so that you might be encouraged. I can tell you that I share very openly and honestly, even if that means I might get hurt. But, if it brings more fame to the One I love, then it’s worth it. For without loving Him, I cannot love you. And sharing of myself, the good and the bad, is the best way I know to love others. Of the hundreds of swirling thoughts both you and I may have at any given moment, I pray that the Lord would daily write His new covenant on your mind as He promises. That those thoughts would be filtered by His love for you. That Jesus Christ would impress upon your heart and by God’s grace and mercy, that you would know that you are worthy.